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Its official - I need glasses!

2007-10-09T20:53:00.000+01:00

I went to the optitions yesterday because I'd been getting headaches when cutting (basically doing anything related to my job that requires concentration), when I'm on the computer too long, driving too long etc. I decided to try and rule out the possibility of it being that I needed glasses.
So I went to the optitions and got my eyes tested. She did loads of crazy things to test them like shining a VERY bright light into my eyes and I had to do a lot of reading of lines. When I was a kid I found it soooo easy to read the bottom line but I have to admit I did struggle quite considerably. So she my optition told me that I needed to wear them when my eyes feel strained or when I've been using them alot.
Glasses are sooooooooooo expensive!! It's like £100 for the frames and then an extra £80 for the lenses to be put in! I have no idea how they get away with it! It's very cheeky.
So yeh thats my newest bit of news. I also went to the main event at the weekend which I have to say was a lot of fun. I felt really challenged and encouraged. Despite being very very cold I enjoyed spending time with everyone and most of all spending time with God. I have neglected him a bit recently so it was good to catch up with the Big G.

Holiday,Hamster, Heroes and the Zoo

2007-09-18T20:33:00.000+01:00

I know its been awhile but I've been a rather busy girl and abit addicted to facebook at the moment...

Holiday
I went on holiday to Bognor Regis on the Army holiday at Butlins. It was a nice little break and a good laugh. I got abit lonely this year during the day so I don't know if I will go back next year. It was good to be around people that love Jesus but there werent many my age so I got a bit bored. It was good to have a few lay-ins though and just generally chillout from work.

Hamster!
When my brother moved out in March he left me the delightful task of looking after his hamster, Chester. He couldn't take Chester with him because his landlord doesn't allow pets (although I think he lying because he secretly doesnt want Chester smelling out his posh new flat). So yeh I got home from my holiday to an empty house and went into the study to check on him and make sure he had enough food etc. I looked into the cage and there was no sign of him. He was gone and I freaked out not because I was worried about him but because I am petrified of hamsters!!! Yeh I know what can they do? I just don't like them. They are like little rats in my opinion. So I went out into the hall way and there he was.... sitting there like butter wouldn't melt and just stared at me....it was like he was laughing at me. So like the rashional person I am I screamed my head off!! It ran into my room. So I shut the door. Then I did what ever girl does when she has a problem. I got my phone out and rang Chris. This was our conversation:

Chris: Hey bubi
Kat: Ummm....hey...umm..help me!!
Chris: What have you done now?
Kat: Chester has escaped and Im scared.
Chris: OK try and get someone to help you and I will see you in an hour (Chris lives 80 miles away)

So I got my aunty round and we tried to catch him but we couldn't find him. We tried to trap him but that failed. Chris got there after an hour and with a simple leaving the food in an open cage and waiting trick we got him. So that was a very scary night indeed.

Heroes
At the weekend I went to see Mike and AJ and we went over to AJ's parents house for lunch. They have sky-plus and they had recored loads of 'Heroes' episodes for them. I had never seen any of them. I thought I'd see what all the fuss was about and watched episodes 3-7. I am now completly hooked! Its an awesome show! I spent the day with Nate yesterday and he has them all on his XBOX so I watched up till episode 10. I can't wait to see what happens!! Its amazingly addictive!

The Zoo
I went to Colchester Zoo with Nate yesterday and it was so awesome! We saw so many cool creatures and Nate had some Colchester lessons from me. A few highlights of our day - we got to see a white tiger called Sasha and he is very rare, we saw sealions, cheetahs and baboons being fed, we got to play in the play area and we got very close to a giraffe called Edmund. Some scary points in our day was being chased by a turkey, nearly being attacked by a goose and seeing alot of animals go to the toilet. The photos are all on facebook if u wanna check em out.

My scary encounter with Greg (the monkey)

2007-08-20T16:03:00.000+01:00

I went to Wickford this weekend to stay with Mike and AJ and something incredibly scary happened to me. Let me start at the beginning.
It was about 11.30 on saturday night so me Mike n AJ decided it was time for bed. I havn't been very well for the past couple of days so I asked AJ if she had anything I could take before I went to bed to stop me from coughing. So we got out the night nurse and then started to wonder where Mike was. He had disappeared. AJ thought he had gone into her room but he wasnt there so we just assumed he had gone downstairs for some reason. We decided not to ponder on it and said goodnight. I went into my room, shut the door and went over to my bed to get my pjs out of my bag, then I thought I saw something move behind me. I turned round and Greg (a huge stuffed monkey) was waving his arms at me. I let out a huge scream and then I saw Mike pop his head out from behind Greg! I was so scared and could have throtled him!!!
So that was my scary weekend moment! Mike will get his commumpance!!!

My 2 weeks of madness

2007-08-13T18:27:00.000+01:00

For the last 2 weeks so much has happened. I have been to TMS and my divisional summer school. So heres what has been happening:

TMS
I arrived safe and sound at about 3.30 after a 2 hours and 45 minutes drive! I was soooo bored! The M25 is scary when you're by yourself and not completly sure where you might end up! I got there without getting lost but caught in a HUGE traffic jam!

I got half way down the M25 and started thinking about the formal night and how fun it would be to get all dressed up......PANTS!!!!!!!!! I left my dress at home! There was no way I could go back for it now! How annoyed was I? VERY!!!! (don't worry I bought a new 1 whilst on a trip to Reading in free time).

When I arrived a experienced a mass hug! It was so good to see my friends again! I was in a room with my four favourite girlies Caitlin, Jess, Emma and Heidi. We unpacked and went to auditions. Auditions weren't too bad and I got to sing 2nd sohprano/middle. I was sat inbetween Heidi and Caitlin so that was cool.

It was such a good week and I had such a laugh! The Hendon boys thought they were so bad but us girlies gave as good as we got. They decided that on Friday morning at 2.30 am they would break into our room and soak us all with water! We hatched a plan. As soon as free time started on Friday afternoon we raced to sainsburys to gather up supplies (shaving foam and tampons). The boys were playing football so we snuck into their rooms and drew shaving foam men in their beds and sprinkled tampons everywhere! This went down so well!

Besides all the pranks and laughs I did learn a lot about God but not as much as I did at divisional!

Summer School

After a whole week at TMS a day after I went to summer school. I was completly shattered but non-the-less very excited! I was student-staff again helping Glyn out in drama.

The week really helped draw me closer to God and I feel so happy at the moment. You can see my review of summer school to know more about what I thought about it but it was so so awesome! The theme was holyness and I have learnt so much about being holy and plan to carry it out in my day to day life so wish me luck because being holy in a hairdressing salon is HARD!!!

I wanna say a big thank you to all my friends at summer school that made it so fun and awesome!

So now I am back to reality and go back to work tomorrow! I have had a couple of days to recover and I am now not so tired! If you wanna see my photos of TMS and Summer school they are on my facebook http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=513029534&pwstdfy=9729dc0f46d88227773a5337e08762f0

Off To Bearwood College!

2007-07-28T11:05:00.000+01:00

Its that time of year. In an hours time I will be on my way to Territorial Music School! I'm abit worried because I have to brave the scary thing that is the M25! I have never driven on it EVER! So wish me luck! According to Route Planner it will take me 2 and half hours to get there. Its a long way and all I have for company is my stereo and Nigel (my monkey).
Everything is packed and swished into my lil ka. Anyone would think Im going for a month the amount of stuff in there!
Im abit nervous about my audition because I havn't had a chance to practise it with a piano only my cd! So we will have to wait and see how that goes. I will be singing all the way down there to keep me occupyed and basically to warm my voice up!
Im so excited about seeing my girlies Caitlin and Jess I can't believe its been a whole year. It's crazy to think it was only a year ago when I was really really nervous about going because the only people I knew that were going was the boys from chelmesford. So much has happened since then. I got my Alevel results, went to uni, dropped out of uni, passed my driving test and now I'm a hairdresser how crazy is that? Its abit scary coz it makes me wonder what will have happened in my life this time next year!
Anyways I'd better go and say goodbye to the parents and Mr. Ruffles (my cat).
I can't wait till summer school next week!!!!

Harry Potter!!!

2007-06-30T22:24:00.000+01:00

I am so excited about Harry Potter! July is gonna be a good month for excitement. The film comes out on the 13th of July and then the book the following week! I am a huge Harry Potter fan and for me this is a huge deal! I have ordered my seat at the odeon to watch the film and pre-ordered my book which I might just have to go and get at midnight!
Harry Potter - Im excited - Nuff said!

p.s Im also really excited because TMS is in exactly 4 weeks people!

What I've been doing

2007-06-25T17:46:00.000+01:00

Well I havn't blogged in awhile so I thought I'd give an update on stuff thats been happening. This weekend I went to see Mike and AJ. I am hopefully going to be moving in with them next year so on Saturday night they decided to leave me in their house on my own to see how I got on being alone there. To my surprise it wasn't that wierd at all. I watched friends on the TV, went into Wickford to get some dinner from the kebab shop and then watched 'Happy Feet' (adorable film) and went to bed. In the morning I went to Wickford corps with them to see what it was like and I have to say I felt very welcome. I sang in the songsters, badly because I had a very bad cold but nevertheless sang. So yeah all in all a good weekend.
On Sunday afternoon round AJ's parent's house we watched the last 2 episodes of 'Doctor Who' on sky plus (great invention if you're reading this please please daddy!) and I have to say I am very impressed with 'Doctor Who'!!! I can't wait to see the next one I thought it was really good. Is that sad? Maybe I need a hobby!
I need some excitment! I will tell you something very exciting. It is exactly 6 months till christmas! That is always exciting! Its also only about 5 weeks till TMS and 6 weeks till summer school. I can't wait to see everyone and have a good time.

Gospel Arts

2007-06-13T20:58:00.000+01:00

On Saturday I went to The Royal Albert Hall to sing with Straight Ahead in the united youth chorus'. I had never been there before and I thought the hall was amazing. Its so beautiful and just big really. I have very mixed feelings about Gospel Arts and here they are:

Eletralyte - Awesome I loved it. I thought they were very good and I still hear the line 'we're going to Wigly' in 'The Master Plan'. So yeh well done guys!
The united choir - I thought it was very songsters and I only liked one song that we sang. It was supposed to be 'gospel' arts not rubbish crap songster songs arts. I really dunno what Andrew Blyth was thinking. He has done some good songs but I must say I was disapointed.
The ISB - Yeh they were good I must admit but I expected it. I look forward to their visit to Colchester in November.
The ISS - They were quite impressive but again thats what I expect from them.

So yeh it was a good night but I don't know if will do it next year.

2007-06-03T14:35:00.000+01:00

Do you ever have those days when you just wanna cry all day long? Today has been one of those days. I've just felt really glum all day long! Things kinda suck at the moment. Over the past couple of days I have been abit of a poorly bunny. I have an eye infection which is driving me nuts and everytime I eat I feel sick so not very fun.
I havn't seen my boyfriend in ages! We've both been working alot and I thought I was gonna see him tonight but thats not happening now because hes been out on patrol today and won't get back till 7 and he'll be tired. I know this probably sounds petty to you but its stressing me out alot!
I miss my friends I never get to see them because I am always at work or doing college work which is so rubbish. Work is getting really hard because I think my profession is the most bitchy profession there is other than modelling. Sometimes I can handle it but on bad days it gets to me and sometimes it makes me rethink things.
I also havn't seen my brother for about a month which is horrible because hes one of my best friends and being without him is so incredibly hard. I have no idea when I will next see him. The last time I saw him it was literally for about half an hour. I just want to hang out like we used to but it just doesn't happen anymore.
My driving is really rubbish I'm stalling all the time! Its really bugging me because it makes me look very silly. It also can't be doing my car any good.
So yeah things havn't been too good lately. Our corps has got it 125th anniversary meeting tonight and I'm just not in the mood to make small talk with people reminising about the times when our corps was actually any good. I have to hold the flag tonight as well because i am the youngest senior soldier which will be.......interesting.
Right now all i want to do is go to bed and not get up for a couple of days! If anyone can cheer me up it will be a miracle.

My New Best Friend!

2007-05-26T18:58:00.000+01:00

I bought my car the other day so I am now offically mobile and Gemma's Taxi! hehe. I am now the proud owner of a purple ka and in my honest opinion its a lovely little car.
Driving is the best and worst feeling. Im constantly worried I'm going to have an accident or do something wrong, but I guess thats normal to begin with and driving will feel normal eventually. I'm just glad I don't have to rely on anyone else anymore for lifts everywhere.
So yeah thats my bit of news. In other news I'm doing alot of training at work at the moment so if anyone wants a £5 blowdry let me know because I could really do with the practice at the moment. I hate it when everyone's working so hard in the salon and I can't do much because I'm too inexperienced. I've been doing a lot of observation (because my boss told me to) but I feel bad because then I feel like Im being no use because Im just standing there not doing a lot. I cant win really.

The best feeling in the world! Ok maybe not the best.

2007-05-14T12:45:00.000+01:00

I passed my driving test!!! So so excited right now! I can't wait to get my car and be independant! All that worry has now turned to relief! So yeah I'm a very happy girlie right now!

Me lead a meeting?.....ha!!!

2007-05-10T21:50:00.000+01:00

I was at church on sunday and Major Graham calls me and Alex into his office. My first thought is why? So then a series of reasons why keep running through my mind such as:

He wants to ask us again what he can do to make the youth happy and again I will tell him that if he can magic 10 more young people out of thin air than that would be perfect or maybe even two because that would double our numbers.
Maybe he's going to moan about my lack of appropiate uniform again. I know I never wear a hat when the band march and my hair is abit crazy but i don't like hats they mess up my hair. Plus my head is very strange shape.
He's maybe going to ask me if I have decided upon whether I'm going to take up the challenge of singing company seargent! I really don't think I can handle that responsibility.
ETC

Yes many things entered my mind on the short trip from the hall to his office. Alex and I exchange glances of 'what now?', 'what have we done this time?' and 'why won't he leave us alone?'. We get into his office and the door shuts. Gulps all round.

Then theres a smile....yes a smile. He wants the youth group (me and Alex) to lead a meeting in 3 weeks!!! 3 weeks! He wants us to do the sermon and everything. This is very scary stuff. Fair enough if we were a normal youth group size but just the two of us is going to be so difficult. I was just too shocked to say no the next thing i know I'm on my way home from the hall.

Another worrying thing on my agenda is my driving test!! Yes people its 4 days away! I'm excited but also anxious and nervous. I just can't wait till its over.

Sunday FUDAY!!

2007-05-07T10:55:00.000+01:00

Last sunday my corps had a sunday funday for the kids. On a normal sunday we get about 6 children at sunday school. We really want our sunday school to grow so we decided to have this funday so that the children could bring along some of their friends and we could all have a good day. 22 children turned up!!!! It was amazing!!!! It really gave me a little glimmer of hope that our church could grow because the kids are the army of today and we need lots! It would be a blessing if just one decided to come along more regularly. I felt really blessed to be surrounded by all these happy children worshipping and learning more about Jesus. I really urge people to pray for my corps and for all those children.

It's one week till my driving test and I am so nervous. I keep having quite nasty dreams such as crashing into walls and this really scary examiner saying "YOU'VE FAILED!!" over and over again.

Update!

2007-04-16T14:03:00.000+01:00

Ok so heres how things are going at the moment:

My Job - a bit better still a bit nervous around people but my friend Gem told me that she feels the exact same way as me so we're gonna stick together and lean on people for support.
Money - Again still stressing me out but I'm just tryin to save and if that means not going out then so be it. Im not gonna stress and worry anymore.
Church - Im gonna move as soon as I can so i have that to look forward to.
My driving test - I actually feel really confident now. I did a mock test today and I passed with 6 minors. So it was really good. I also was given what I think are the 2 hardest manovers, paralell park and reverse round a corner. No problems at all! So I feel so much more confident about it all now.

I read in Jude's blog that in a meeting she went to they were advised to move away the stone of worry. I think I need to do exactly that and not worry about these things. God will take control and if things don't go to plan I know I'll get through it because I always do and I know that God is always with me. That comforts me abit even if I do worry and stress out alot!

I've noticed that lots of other people have been blogging recently which is really good! Keep it up guys because I think it is so cool to read about other peoples lives and to see how they are getting on. Especially when you don't see them very often!

STRESS!!!!

2007-04-07T21:29:00.000+01:00

Ok if ur squeemish STOP READING NOW! I have a stress rash all over my body! It is so nasty and painful and its making me feel sad and very un-attractive! It is the wierdest thing ever! I dunno whats causing it ok maybe I do! It's because I am so so so STRESSED!I don't think my life has EVER been this stressful. I just wanna be able to relax but I can't there is so much going on in my head right now and I just can't let go of them no matter how hard I try. Here are my stresses:

Work - I feel a huge need to impress my boss (i don't really know why). I just want her to look upon me as a good work. I feel constantly like I need to be doing things and sometimes I just run out of ideas. I also want to remain friendly with everyone. Ever since my boss told me that I come across abit intimidating I'm trying to be extra nice.
Money - I'm on £80 a week so it's not stretching far. I have to pay out £40 a week on driving lessons, I have a huge new look bill, I have to get to Romford next week for Fayes 21st birthday party and get her a pressie, I also still have a very big uni debt to pay off! I'm sure I owe my mum money aswell.
My driving test - My driving test is on the 14th May and I'm so scared and nervous. I feel so pressured to pass 1st time because my brother did.
Church - I'm really starting to hate my church.There are NO young people! It's annoying me because I feel so lonely there and I feel so much more at home when I'm worshipping around people my own age!
College - I have ALOT of work to do. I have to pass my Hairdressing NVQ within a year and most people do it in two! EEEEEK
My Brother - This isn't really a stress I just miss him because he moved out a couple of days and it's hard because I feel like an only child now he's gone.

So yeh I'm ready to explode and I look like a complete and utter freak! WOOOOOO!

New Job!

2007-03-14T13:10:00.002Z

Hey peoples
Just so you all know I handed in my notice yesterday! I have to work till the end of this week and then I start at my new job at Mane Creations on Tuesday! I'm so relieved to be getting out of that place. Now I won't be waking up in fear of going to work and hopefully I will be much more motivated!
I went to a trial day at Mane Creation on Monday and the people there are so much more laid back and nice. The people I work with at the moment are so uptight and to be blunt snobby and think they are IT! It annoys me when people are like that I'd prefere it if they were more honest with themselves but.. hey.
So yeah I'm feeling over all alot better now and looking forward to next week. I've got a test for college tomorrow so it's gonna be a lot of revision tonight.

BIG decision!

2007-03-05T15:53:00.000Z

An update I hate my boss and he hates me and I need to find a new job because I am so miserable where I am at the moment. I thought problem solved when I got an inteview with a salon right around the corner from where I live it would have so many benefits:

I won't have to get up as early
I will save money on transport because I can walk there
The salon is smaller so its a more intimate environment.
There are less juniors so my training will be more important.
I will probably be more apprectaited
The salon closes later than the one im in at the moment

So there are lots of pros. I went to the interview today and it seemed very positive but there is one BIG problem! They want me to be able to qualify in a year! If I don't then they will have to drop me from the salon. If I don't have a salon then I can't finish qualifying! Then it's a huge waste of time. Qualifying in a year isn't impossible but its very hard and doesn't rely completly on me. It relys on my clients I have to be able to get models so I can practise and I have to have the time to get all my work done!

I don't know what to do! Please help me people! I need advise!

Back to school! Can people see God in me?

2007-02-15T19:20:00.000Z

I went to hairdressing school today! It was really good. All the people in my class are surprisingly nice. There are about 12 of us so thats really cool.
I got up this morning a complete bundle of nerves because I had no idea what was going to happen and what it was going to be like. To add to this I have a horrorific cough and cold! I didn't wanna miss the 1st day so I rolled out of bed and went! When I thought about going back to school these things came to mind....

Bullying (ok I was bullied alot!)
Homework
Nasty Teachers
Complete and utter stupid people who don't listen! I.E - CHAVS!!!!
Hot stuffy class rooms
Hands up whenever you ask a question

I was right about alot of these things especially CHAVS! There were a couple there but hey hoe they seem to be everywhere. My teacher is really nice though so it's all good!
It was so wierd being back in a classroom. I felt a tad old though because the majority of the class is 16-17 there is one other 19 year old and one 22 year old which im very happy about.
I had one strange moment. It was strange because one girl said to me that there was something different about me. I was like umm.... what....?...excuse me! Then she said not in a bad way a good way. She said I had a really good vibe and that I wasn't like everyone else. Was God shining through me in a way that someone could just sense it?

Happy birthday to ME!!!!!!

2007-02-07T22:22:00.000Z

Yes folks today is my 19th brthday! Do i feel any different?........errrmm...not not really. Today was practically just like any other day just with a few pressies thrown in. I got up, went to work, ate cake and came home again. I did go out for a meal but yeh.. that was it unfortunatly. It was just like any other day.
I miss being a kid when you get really excited about birthdays and have a party! I used to love my birthdays and always look forward to blowing out the candles and making a wish and all that 'kids' stuff. Birthdays used to be magical just like Christmas! I guess thats one of the negative points of getting older. Ah well i did have a nice day i just wish i could have shared it with my friends.
I still can't believe Im 19! Its a wierd age. 18 is special and 20 is kinda different because then you're no longer a teenager. 19's just inbetween. Ah well it's my last year of being a teenager so i suppose i'd better embrace my youth before it slips through my fingers! I never thought this is where I would be at 19 but i guess life is never what you expect it to be. I just guess I'm really blessed. Last night at songsters there was a reading it went something like this:
If you've always got spare change in your pocket - you're blessed
If you wake up every morning inside a house - you're blessed
If you have health - you're blessed
It listed all these different things and I had them all. It just made me realise how incredibly selfish I can be and how insignificant some of the problems I have day by day are. Im so lucky to have been blessed with the sourounds I was brought up around and family and friends that I have! Sometimes we just forget how lucky we are. I guess in some ways I'm very lucky to of reached my 19th birthaday and the 'normal day' that I had.

SUMMER SCHOOL!!!!

2007-02-02T20:37:00.000Z

I went to Straight Ahead practise on Monday and it made me really sad. Miss Charlotte Still was missing. She's gone travelling and it was so wierd her not being there! The kind of leads the sohpranos and it was wierd singing without her. Me and AJ were joking around when we were being given a piece of music and told we had 2 share 1 between 2 and I said in a highly dramatic voice (you know the normal going ons if your Kat Swan) "Oh I miss Charlotte I'd be sharing with her if she were here" and then pretended to cry into AJ's shoulder. Then I actually shed a couple of tears! It was quite sad! Charlotte you are missed lots!!! COME BACK SOON!!! I hope she comes to summer school if she doesn't Im gonna hav 2 go to Hadleigh and drag her there!
I sent off my summer school form last week! I can't believe its that time of year again! I can't wait! It's one of my favourite times of year! Last year's was excellent and I'm really looking forward to doing it all over again. Last year was one of my hardest and summer school always lifts me up because it makes me realise there are young people who feel exactly the same as I do. I love all my friends from summer school so much and want them to know it! You guys rock lots n lots and thanx for just being!
Its amazing how time flys by so quickly. This time last year I was in college doing my A-Levels and getting really excited about my birthday (which is in 5 days!). I was sending off my ucas form so worried about getting into university. I wonder where I will be next year! Hopefully I will have nearly completed a years worth of hair dressing college!
Sooner than I know it it will be the summer time and I will be packing my bags and travelling all of 2 miles to get to Essex uni and be around all my favourite people again! It's gonna be a bit of a rush coz im going to TMS which is the week before and ends on Saturday 4th August and Summer School starts on Sunday 5th August! Oh and speaking of summer school I wonder when we will be getting the CD Roms!? If anyone knows anything let me know soon!!

The Life Of A Junior Hairdresser

2007-01-26T20:00:00.000Z

I went to my trial day at Ministry Of Hair today. The people were all really friendly and really nice which is good. My day wasn't particularly interesting and not very exciting but I know that I won't be doing it for ever it's just for now.
Here is what a junior hairdresser's day consists of:

Taking client's coats
Getting cups of tea/coffee for clients
Washing towels
Shampooing client's hair
Sweeping hair off of the floor
Getting the lunch order from the sandwich shop
Cleaning
Tidying shelves and putting products back where they belong

It turns out that I'm quite good at this so THEY OFFERED ME A JOB!!!!! So now I'm a junior hairdresser in the making! Yay! It's not gonna be easy but I think I can do it. I'm really looking forward to things now that I know what I'm going to be doing.
The only BIG downside is getting up early every morning to catch the 8 o'clock bus. I guess I will get used to eventually. I'll be working five days a week from 9-6 so I guess I will have to get used to it.
So things are definatly looking up and Im over the moon! So now when people say have you got a job yet? (the old question I used to dread) I can finally say YES!

Starting to get somewhere

2007-01-23T11:52:00.000Z

Things are starting to look up now. Apparently the blonde bobbed haired lady left a message on my phone but I never got it so maybe she lied! I dunno who cares!
I had an interview last week with a hairdressing academy. It went really well. The lady who interviewed me is willing to enroll me onto the course as soon as I get a job at a salon. They set me up an interview with Ministry of Hair (a really nice salon in town)! I've just got back from that interview and they want me to go in on Friday for a trial day! So if all goes well then my training can begin! So we shall see how things go!
Apart from that there isn't much else to say.

Blonde Bobbed haired lady where were you?

2007-01-16T11:10:00.000Z

I am so amazingly annoyed! I have had the most annoying morning in the whole world! I had a job interview this morning at 9.30 for a hairdressing job. The salon is opening in mid February so the lady on the phone when I rang up about the job told me that to meet her in debenhams resturant because the salon wasn't open yet. She told me that she had blonde hair in a bob with a fringe and to meet her on Tuesday 16th of January at 9.30.
So I got up nice and early so that I would be somewhat awake when I got there. I straightened my hair and put on the cutest outfit ever. It was a struggle walking in my stilletos but at least I looked perfessional. I took my NRA with me accompanied with a CV. I was a little bt nervous but I usually perform best when I am a little bit nervous. I got the 8.40 bus giving me pleantly of time to get into town. I met my nextdoor neighbour Cassie on the bus so we had good old natter I told her all about my interview and she wished me luck. We got into town half an hour before my interview so we decided to continue our natter in Costa to kill abit of time.
I left Cassie at about 9.20 and got to Debenhams about 9.25. I didn't know that Debenhams opens at 9.30 so I waited outside for five minutes until the doors were opened. I was looking around for this blonde, bobbed haired lady but couldn't see her at all. I went up to the resturant which was practically empty and couldn't see her. I thought it was a little strange so I thought I'd wait for a little while she'd probly be along in a minute or two. So I waited and waited. It got to about 9.40 and so I rang my mum asking her advice on what I should do. She said that maybe she had got held up in traffic or something. Thinking she was probly right I waited again. After a couple more minutes I saw a blonde, bobbed haired lady coming up the escalator but it wasn't her because she walked straight passed the resturant and into the kids section. She was the only blonde bobbed haired lady I had seen the whole time I had been waiting.
I waited until 10.00 and nobody came. I felt very annoyed and I still am because I still don't know what happened to her. I wonder if she ever turned up. Maybe she forgot about me. When I got home I tried ringing her to see if I could find out but she didn't pick up her phone.
So I've wasted an entire morning and bus fare! I wonder if I will ever get a job! So now nobody can say I havn't tried grrrrr!!!!!!
Lets home Thursday goes better when I have my hairdressing academy interview. At least I know that its in a place where I can't miss someone and at least I know the name of who is interviewing me.
So if anyone finds this lady then I would very much like to know where she is!!!!!

It's been awhile

2007-01-10T12:34:00.000Z

It's been awhile since I last wrote I just havn't had that much to say. I've been so amazingly bored and nothing much has gone on.
Christmas was good and it was really nice to see all my family and friends. Christmas is such a good time of year because everyone is happy and smiley and you can't help but smile.
This is my first post of the year so Happy New Year everyone. I'm gonna try and make sure this year is a good one. Last year was a good one and I achieved a lot but hopefully this year will be even better
Heres an update on my life at the moment. I have a part time job in my brother's girlfriend's parent's pub. Does that make sense? This is just for now so I don't die of bordom and to get a little bit of money coming in.
I have 2 interviews for next week. My first one is to work in a new hairdressing salon that is opening up next month as a junior hairdresser. This is on Tuesday and I'm really nervous so please pray for me. My other interview is for a hairdressing academy to get an aprentiship so I can train to get an NVQ in hairdressing. This one takes place next Thursday and I really hope it goes well.
I'm really trying to stay positive at the moment but it's not always easy when you're not quite sure just where exactly your life is going. It scares me so much, but I'm just trying to think positive.
Anyways I'd better go and do something exciting........ummm yeh.

I NEED A JOB!!!!!!!!

2006-12-23T12:12:00.000Z

You know how in my last blog I wrote about phrases? I have another new phrase that evreyone keeps haunting me at the moment! Well i guess its more of a question. The new ones are :

Have you got a job yet?
Are you working?
So do you know where you are going to be working?

The answer to them all is NO! It's not like I havn't been trying because I really have! Its not that easy to get a job this side of Christmas. I wish people would give me a break. Positivity at the moment in my life is very rare.

I was encouraged by someone at church though who told me I was very brave for leaving uni and she said i was very brave to overcome everything I have. Talking of church the children did so well this year. Our children are very precious because we only have six children and only two youth. Yeah very sadening. They maybe small in number but they did a play focusing on the angels and really got me into the Christmas spirit. All I have been thinking about since I got home was getting a job and sorting myself out. I didnt't even think about Christmas and that play made me think about Jesus and how lucky i am to have Him in my life. I dunno what I would have done without him in the past few months. So now I'm focusing on Jesus and after Christmas I will sort everything out because these next few days are about him.

Busy Busy Busy

2006-12-16T17:05:00.000Z

So I've been back about a week now and I have been so busy! Last Sunday was a bit an awkward day. Everyone at my church was excited to see me back for Christmas (but little did they know that I'm back for good). I felt so bad telling people I've left uni. There were many shocked and disapointed faces. The main phrases of the day were:

"Oh why?"
"Thats a shame"
"Oh dear"

There were many disapointed people. I felt really bad and everytime I had to explain myself I got more and more emotional. I hate people feeling disapointed in me! It makes me feel really down. By the end of the day I wanted to scream at the whole congregation and just say "I've quit uni because i didn't like it and NO i don't want to talk about it!". There weren't many encouraging comments at all! Which for a church sometimes can be a little disheartening.

Anyways on Monday it was very tideous because I think I went to nearly every hair dressing salon in Colchester asking if they were looking to take on any trainees. NO JOY! What does look promising though is a hairdressing academy (which applied to yesterday) where I can do an apprentiship and get an NVQ in hairdressing. So fingers crossed.

I've spent alot of time with my cousin Georgina this week it was good to catch up and be girly. Shes doing a fashion course at college and on Wednesday I modelled a dress she made. I hope I did ok I was so nervous. Her dress was amazing.

Last night was absoluly manic. I baby sat my cousins and they are so incredibly naughty! There were 2 blackcurrent spillages, very bad table manners (throwing food is bad!) and fighting (why couldn't my aunty of had girls) !

Today was good me and my parents went searching for my christmas present. Im still not sure whether 2 get a laptop or a desktop. I was looking around and saw a few good deals but we didnt buy anything today.

So yeah I have had a very busy week and bring on next week! Im starting my driving lessons up again so hopefully that will go well. hmmmm we'll see.

Bye Bye Roehampton!

2006-12-08T00:24:00.000Z

After a lot of thinking, pondering, worrying and panic attacks I have decided to leave uni. It wasn't a quick decision I can tell you that. University is the hardest thing I have ever experienced. I have failed every essay that I have done here. Its so hard and my hearts just not in it anymore! I now fear drama and have realised that I don't want it to be like this. I want to go back to enjoying it. I have prayed about this a lot!
I don't think there has been a day here where I have wanted to give up. I have cried at least twice every week and for me thats not normal! For people who know me, i am not one to cry alot. Im normally very happy and joking around!
For those of you who are questioning what is this girl going to next? Fear not! I have a kind of plan! I am going to apply to colchester institute and do a course in either beauty therapy or hairdressing. This will all start in September so i will have to get a full time job inbetween. Well this is the plan. It may not turn out exactly as I plan but i know God will look after me.
So yeah! A bit of a shock. My mum and step dad are just glad that im gonna be doing what makes me happy! I havn't told my dad yet i left him an answer message so hopefully he'll ring me back soon and not read this before ringing. Sorry dad if you do.
I did worry about what my family would think because i am the first to go to uni (apart from uncle malc) and I don't want to disapoint anyone. I know my mum was proud of me for getting in and i feel bad because shes been so supportive.
At least I can say I've tried uni and it wasn't for me. End of. Thats it. Im just dreading packing everything up again! Its gonna take forever!

Very scared and worried

2006-11-30T14:33:00.000Z

Ok so this is probably gonna be on of my most personal blogs i've ever written. Right now i am so scared about my future.
Currently i am so worried about a 1000 word essay that has got to be in tomorrow. I have so far only written the title. I don't know where to go from there. We have to do a critical essay on an article but the problem is that i don't understand what the article is about. I have tried contacting my tutor but he hasn't got back to me. This essay is worth 100% of this module! So yeh im pretty screwed!
I was very upset last week and even considered leaving uni but then a little voice inside told me to hang in there. Right now I wanna give up so much. I have two weeks left and then i get about 2 months off. I just wanna go home now. All of my work is so hard. Im trying so hard but i can't do it!
A lot of the time while at uni is spent on my own so all this work and worry gets to me even more.
My mum came to visit me yesterday along with my two auntys and i had a really good time. Really though it made me miss home even more!
Right now i feel so alone because no one is around! HELP!!!! I just wanna go home. I really dunno what to do. If any of my church friends are reading this then i would really really appreciate it if you could pray for me. Anyone else - advice please! xx

Fire in the hole!!!!! ...well actually the oven!

2006-11-19T12:47:00.000Z

It was a normal friday evening me and my flatmates were happily sitting down and watching 'deal or no deal'. Love that show. That Noel Edmunds is one funny guy. Ok so we get bored at uni! Its an additive show ok? It was a really rubbish contestant and we loved watching her fail miserably! mwhahaha. Alice and Kaley were having their usual from mammas pizza and im thinking i really should get off my bum and cook something soon.
Anyways Aaron decided he was going to cook some burgers under the grill for his dinner. Very normal. So he cooks and we watch 'deal or no deal'. Suddenly theres a really familar smell its .....a bbq? In November? Surely not! No its Aarons cooking! So me and the girls say to him to maybe turn the grill down a touch because by this point the kitchen is becoming extremly smokey!! Aaron says being a third year and all "Oh it'll be ok, as long as we keep the kitchen door shut the fire alarm won't go off". By this time it is getting even more smokey and I'm beginning to worry because its raining very hard outside! Hannah then suddenly lets out a little shriek! She said she saw a flame in the oven. Not a good sign! I look over and yep I see it flames! They are only little ones that kept dying. The kitchen by now is covered in smoke. There should never be this much smoke in the kitchen I mean really!
Suddenly it happens the dreaded sound. Yep you've guessed it. The fire alarm sounds. All my flatmates start cursing Aaron and we all quickly vacate the flat. Alice with no shoes on. So we are all standing outside with no umbrella and its pouring. NOT my ideal friday night. Me and my flatmates decided to get Aaron back for this so we decided to inform everyone in our block who is freezing and wet that it is Aarons fault that they are freezing and wet!
Ok so by this time the two fire engines come along. There is no fire just ALOT of smoke! This really irritates me because they send TWO fire engines for NO fire! There could be someone elsewhere needing the fire service for real!
The lesson we were told by the security guy was learn to cook! Cheeky so and so!

My missing mummy moan! (great alliteration dont you think?)

2006-11-15T21:19:00.000Z

Right so ive been at uni for about 2 months now and apparently (according to friends) after awhile you get 'used' to missing people. At the moment i really really miss my family! I dunno why but today has been one of those days where i just can't seem to get them off my mind. My mum rings me everyday but its just not the same. I miss most of all hugs! I dont get many of those! Im not going home till december 15th and ive promised myself that i wont go home till then! Its gonna be so hard! All i wanted to do today was jump on a train and go home! I dunno what i would have done if i was still living in my old flat because they were so hard to live with and it would have made things twice as hard.
Theres nothing quite like home. I love going home because i can totally be myself because im around the people who love me no matter what and they know me better than anyone. I just wanna be in my own bed with my harry potter mug filled with tea that mum made me!
I also can't stand London at times because its such a hole! Theres hardly any green around and i don't feel very safe. In Essex you can walk around town and not get barged out of the way! In London its soooooo crowded and smelly!
I cant wait till November 29th! My mums coming up with my auntys to see me. We are gonna go christmas shopping! I cant wait till christmas not just because i get to go home but because i just love that time of year! Everyone is so happy around christmas! Even me LOL

My Roomies and my fasinating key!

2006-11-09T15:05:00.000Z

Ok so im all settled in now and have got to know my new roomies. They are all really nice. Well there is one room mate I havn't met yet but im sure shes cool.
Heres a lil bit bout each roomie
Alice - shes a tad crazy i moved in on her birthday. shes very funny and when she goes out you have to watch out for her coz she might go off with strange men! LOL
Aaron - hes so funny and thinks im precious. A little thing about aaron is that he is gay! Its a good thing coz hes hilarious and has made me feel welcome since I moved in. He's the floor rep.
Jason - he has the coolest hair ever! He has a giant affro and is also a drama student like me! One day i vow i will ruffle that affro!
Kaley - shes lovely one of those girls who is very nice and very pretty (theres one on every floor and thats her). She likes to suddenly burst into song alot too.
Celia - Shes quite nice shes doing primary teaching and reunited me with my friend from sixth form which was cool!
Patrick - hes from America and only here to christmas (which isn't that long) and is hardly ever here I think ive only seen him once!
Hannah - I have yet to meet her. I will meet her either sunday or monday. She's currently at home because it's her reading week.
So yeah thats my house mates. Its a mixed bunch really but i get on with all of them so thats really cool! Thumbs up from me!
I have a key card to get into my room now instead of the normal bog standard key. So this causes huge fasination from me. Also I need to make sure I have it with me at all times because I need it to get into my room all the time because once the door closes it locks! So far ive been ok but i think sooner or later Im gonna forget!

My New Room!

2006-11-06T21:26:00.000Z

Well after alot of trips back and forth from my old room to my new one everything is in!! I had a couple of little helpers that helped me move all my stuff from one place to another! Thankyou Jordan and Beth! Oh and thanks to Jude who helped me unpack everything!
My new room is sooooo awesome! I have my own little bathroom and its not scabby (like mikes teehee) its really cool! The kitchen is humungus! Its great!
It took me and Jude ages and ages to unpack everything! I nearly fell off my spinny chair (which is awesum it moves up and down and everything!) about three times whilst sticking up photographs! It was funny looking back but at times i did fear for my life! After all that unpacking me and Jude were so hungry and we needed to do some shopping so we decided to go to Asda which very conveniently has a McDonalds inside! So we killed two birds with one stone. I was very disapointed though because Asda had run out of my Yorkie cookies :( I always buy them! Its so bad when me and Jude go out because we just get silly! Shes so funny and i love her to pieces!
My flatmates also seem very nice which is really cool! I'm just so glad to live with and be around nice people for a change.
I am also very proud of myself today because I set up my internet all by myself! I feel like a grown-up! Its so cool! So im very happy at the moment!

Pop n fresh travels to Rochester

2006-11-05T15:54:00.000Z

This weekend i went to Rochester. For people who don't know Rochester well (like i didn't) its the most BORING place in the whole world!!! It's even more boring than Colchester! Yeh thats right VERY boring! The only reason i went was to see my friend Mike (yeh the crazy one who rang me at some unearthly hour of the night shouting weeeeiner down the phone!). I can understand why he did it now because he was overcome with bordom from living in the most boring place ever!!
So after 3 hours of being on a train and my ipod running out of battery when i got to Chelmesford I finally got there. I then waited for Mike for about 10 minutes! He only lives about 2 minutes from the train station.... what was he doing?
Anyways Mike thought it would be funny to call me names ALL weekend! Ok so here are the nasty names that Mike thought up dwarfina (coz im vertically challenged) and Popnfresh (because apparently im fat!). For those of you who do not know what or who popnfresh is (because i didnt) its this fat guy made of dough! Mikes just so overcome by jealousy of me that he feels that he needs to call me names to make him feel better about himself! One day that boy will pay!
So yeh we didnt do much all weekend just ate and slept and walked into Chatham (because Rochester is rubbish and boring!). Did I meation that Rochester is BORING? oh i did see 'The DaVinci Code' which was very good. It really made me think. What if Jesus did have a baby with Mary Magdalen? hmmmm. Could I be related to Jesus? If anyone has any strong views on the davinci code then please share your thoughts.
I'm moving tomorrow! Yay! Tomorrow i get the key to my new room and move out of this hole full of bullies! So tonight whilst watchin good old corrie i will be packing my bags to move about 300 meters away tomorrow afternoon! So i will let you know how it all goes!

hair today, move house tomorrow (well not really), essay due in soon!

2006-11-01T15:35:00.000Z

I got my hair cut today its not as extreme as johnny mitch but its different. You know before your hair cut you look at models in magazines and think ooooh thats nice? Well i did that and I thought yeh I'm gonna look sooooo cool! yeh right! LOL So my hair dresser cuts me in this fringe just like the one on the model. I really don't know if I like it. This always happens to me! I always change my mind about the look when it is me who looks like it! It will take awhile for me to get used to it. Nobody apart from my hairdresser has seen it yet so i'm waiting for reactions from people. I hate the reaction I always get from my brother it goes something like this: "Woah! Uh oh!!....i mean ummm....it looks um good..yeh!". Not exactly the most ecouraging of comments! But thats just him for you!
I havn't really been up to a lot recently I got a phone call from the head of my college at uni saying that she had a room for me! I'm so thrilled because things in my halls aren't too good and I will be glad to move out! She gave me two decisons and they were a room in lee house with only 8 people to share a kitchen with and ensuite, or a room exactly like the one i have already just 2 floors up. What would you choose? A room that is exactly the same as i already have where my current nasty housemates can still get onto my floor or a brand new room with my own bathroom where my current nasty housemates can't get into? Seems pretty easy decison to me! I decided on Lee house with the ensuite! So thats good. I won't be moving in until next monday because I'm at home at the moment because it's my reading week.
I have an essay to do in this 'reading week' (or doss week) and so far i've done about 17 words lol! I need to do 1000 words but I will eventually get around to it. I'm one of these people who leaves it to the last minute as you will probably know if you know me well. I just am soooo lazy lol! Ah well it will get done! Infact I'd better stop rambling on here and do it!

A Rude Awakening!

2006-10-24T16:27:00.000+01:00

You know annoying things happen when your most happy and relaxed (like asleep)? Well here is a a light hearted and funny now but not at the time example:
Ok so last night I decided afta long pondering on what to do and of course my milk and cookie to go to bed. Its a reasonable hour to go to bed. It's about 11. Ok I know not that late, I'm at uni and everyone else is probably in the clubs by now but me no I decide to go to bed because yes ok I'll admit it im BORING!! I'm just about getting used to my uni bed and it is now relativly comfortable especially now i have my tinkerbelle pillow (funded by my singing company!). So I settle down and start to drift off to sleep.........meanwhile a few miles away in Rochester resides a crazy guy Mr. Mike Cowdry ( also a uni student and one of my bestest friends) is bored too but he doesn't wnat to go to bed. I guess his bed obviously is not as comfy as mine so he thinks hmmm what can I do for fun? How do I amuse myself? He decides "I know I'll ring Kat and be really ANNOYING!!"
Back in my room I'm sound asleep dreaming about wonderful things such as ......food. Then suddenly I stir from dreamland (im a VERY light sleeper!) and I hear my mobile ringing. I get up and start to stumble around in the dark. It's under my bed! Who put it there? Im so sleepy that i don't even look to see who it is ringing and think that it could be someone important like I dunno um...Jesus! But yeh next thing I hear is..... "WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEENNNNNNNNER!!" typical of Mike not impressed but oh that boy will PAY!!! mwahaha!
Yeh so that was last night and I'm plotting my revenge and what did I learn from this? To put my mobile on silent before bed!

Trains!!

2006-10-19T14:00:00.000+01:00

I have been on soooooo many trains in the past few days its unreal! Ok so monday I got on 4 trains in one day! I got on three separate trains to get to straight ahead practise which was cool. I was so happy to get away from my flatmates (well id hardly call them mates but you know what i mean) they are driving me crazy and constantly giving me grief. So I had a chat with a few people at straight ahead about what had been going on at uni and realised that what they are doing is to be blunt bullying! So I decided to catch a train home to Colchester because I needed to see my mum and tell her exactly what had been going on. So then having to catch my fourth train to get home. I hate trains but if its somewhere worth going then I'll get on one. I just hate the noises of them.
So then its Tuesday and I get a further 3 trains to from Colchester to Uni. Im glad i went back to uni though because I saw Simon's jazz concert it was really good. My favourite song was Mcfly five colours! Ok so its not jazz but it was very entertaining! Tuesday night was a good though.
So yesterday Wednesday I had a lecture in the morning but in the afternoon me and Judith get on two trains to get to St. Pauls to meet Nathan. That was a very funny train ride. Jude and me get very silly and giggly when we are together. So we meet Nathan and go to Nandos for dinner. It was so yummy. I actually felt full (its been awhile since i felt full). So then we decided to get coffee. We were looking around St. Pauls for a coffee shop that was actually open. Me and Jude are very tired by this point. Its something about Nandos it makes us both very tired lol. I get silly when I'm tired and somehow I ended up hit Nathan in the eye with my scarf but anyways...we couldn't find an open coffee shop. So we get on another train!!!! We went to Liverpool Street station to go to costa. Nathan knocked a chair over it was sooooooo funny because its the tiniest seating area. I still giggle about it now. So then we decide to call it a night and me and Judith get on another to trains to get back to uni! So crazy!
So if you've been counting I've been on 12 trains in 3 days!! I'm also going to Oxford street and back tonight with the christian union to this thing called 'One Life'. So that will probably be another four trains and then I'm going back home tomorrow so thats another 3 trains!!! I hate trains. They offically suck!!!
But yeh so thats what I've been doing the past couple of days. I havn't been very happy these couple of days so i just wanna thank all my friends that have been there for me and looking out for me! You guys rock.

Sssssssh!!!

2006-10-11T14:56:00.000+01:00

I have the most annoying boy living across the hall from me. He plays the piano! I love the piano alot but he plays it out of tune and he just can't play. I know people need to practise but really hes so amazingly rubbish! He sings about mammas pizza which I first thought was funny but after 3 weeks of hearing it its not so funny anymore. It's driving me crazy especially when im trying to work. The worst thing is if i ask him to turn it down because I'm trying to study he turns it up. Grrrrrr! So today i went into his room and was like really please sssssssssssshhhhhh!!! It's so ear piercing. I dunno what to do. I think there are a few things i could do:

Play my cornet amazingly loud with my door open and we could have a really loud battle of the instruments! That could be fun but to be honest I need to get some work done and I'm not great at conflict
I could just ignore him and try to concentrate
Buy some ear plugs
Go and smash up his piano
Hide all his music
Introduce him to simon white (who runs jazz band) and let him put up with his bad keyboard playing

What do you think? I havn't a clue if anyone has any ideas as to what I can do about noisey piano boy let me know. Otherwise Im going to loose the will to live!!!

From Russia with love

2006-10-09T13:37:00.000+01:00

Ok so being a drama student i have to go and see an number of plays. The first play I have to go and see is 'King Lear' ahhhhhhhh! So there is a brief talkabout it in my lecture today. The lecturer is rambling on about this russsian director and how famous he is and saying something along the lines of I love him so that is why you are going to watch his play. Then she starts talking about how amazingly depressing the play is and that it is three hours long. So yeh she was really selling it to me. I start to think about the toastie I'm going to make when I get back to my room. Then one of my fellow class mates asks "I've herd the play is in Russian?" and my lecturer gives a casual "Yes it is". Then I stop thinking about the toastie and actually realsie what she is saying. It hits me. Russian!!! What? Surely not? Oh my word shes not joking. Why Russian? I have no clue. I'm guessing it all comes down to semiotics AGAIN! So because we have no idea what the play is about through the words we have to study the semiotics to get actually work out what on earth is going on. So three hours of complete and utter wah?? I have nothing against russians i would just rather go and see a play in a language i can actually understand. I mean thats just plain cruel. I don't get some things in english let alone russian. it's just plain mad.
Anyways I had a really good weekend. I stayed with Mike and AJ which was lots of fun. We did alot of decorating and I seemed to get more paint on me than on the walls. Ooops. Oh yeah and i nearly broke their hoover. It started smoking!
It was youth councils weekend so we spent most of Saturday and Sunday there. It was awesum seeing all my friends and worshipping God altogether again. We talked about human traffiking again. I say again because we did it last year. It saddened me a bit because I didn't realise how much of it was happening. I think it needs to be dealt with so I am going to speak to my christian union and see if we can get some sort of petition going. I can't believe there are more people being traffiked than there were being made slaves when the slave trade was happening. There is so much darkness in the world today and not enough is being done about it. I'm not saying that I'm going to change the world but I just want to make a difference. I really want to encourage people in my university to help. But before I do that I need to ring Beth and get some laundry done.

On my travels to..........Wickford

2006-10-05T14:38:00.001+01:00

Im off to stay in Wickford with my friends Mike and AJ this weekend. Well its a bit of long weekend because I'm going this afternoon. I love Mike and AJ they rock and are like a big brother and sister to me (even though they are married lol). I'm going to stay there because it's youth councils this weekend it would be better to stay there and travel with them rather than going from London on both days and having to travel back and forth on the train and not really know where I'm going.
Talking of youth councils I've gotta have some kind of interview in front of everyone about me starting uni and being a christian. Hmmmm im not too worried but its gonna be ....hmmm lets think of a word....interesting. I have many different views on uni. Its good but very hard for me just because i am very different to some people on my floor but im hoping that Jesus is shining through me.
Today I have been so lazy I've only been up a couple of hours i got up at the wonderful time of 1 pm wooo! Im so amazingly lazy. Laziness is one of my many wonderful talents teehee. Thursdays is a wondeful day because I dont have any lectures and can be lazy ALL day long mwahahahaha!

Semiotics and the Backstreet Boys!

2006-10-02T14:41:00.000+01:00

Its official! Semiotics is rubbish! I have never been so bored in a lecture in my whole life. I found out that my lecturer loves semiotics! She was talking about how important they are in everything we do. Yes we use signs to explain stuff and determine things but spending two hours talking about it is madness. My brain actually started to ache!! Then I started to think about lunch to stop my brain from aching and when actually come back to earth shes ramblin about trees and I got very confused :S hmmm. When ever we do a performance she analyses it and uses semiotics to do it. Not all performances are deep. Like for example I was throwing away a towel and she thought the towel represented my soul. Whats that about?
At this precise moment im listening to glorious sound that is the backstreet boys lol! I love them. I dunno why I just really like their music. Ive been listening to all sorts of old school 90's stuff at the moment. The 90's was pretty awesum!
Its so strange being back at uni. I really didn't wanna come back there were many tears at the train station. I was also upset to leave mr. ruffles (my cat) because hes not feeling very well. But after a 3 hour journey here i am back to uni. Im going out with some girls tonight to hear some jazz which should be awesum. Im really glad that ive made some friends and an extra plus is that they are christians!! Yay!

Home Sweet Home

2006-09-30T14:45:00.000+01:00

I've discovered just how much I missed my home. I got home yesterday and just being here made me happy. I felt I could relax and be myself. My parents looked happy to see me which was good. I actually got some decent food aswell which really cheered me up!
Im getting even more good food tonight! Theres a big family meal which I have to go to and apparently theres gonna be about 30 family members there. Its gonna be awkward because I haven't seen some of them since I was about 5. You know when some creepy woman (and you have no idea who they are) come up and say I havn't seen you since you were a baby and you're like um.... yeh...nice to see you. Inside your head you're think who on earth is this woman. Then about 15 mins after your nan says oh thats your aunty Flo. Its like ok so where was my birthday money for the past 18 years? LOL some aunty. Familys are very strange. I love my close relatives but these distant ones you havn't seen in awhile are just strange!
Anyways tomorrow I have to go back to what i now call reality. Back to work and stress. ROEHAMPTON! haha. It's not that bad really i just like being a lazy bum at home. When I'm at uni i have to actually do some work and im constantly worried about something or other.
I've been listening to track on the straight ahead cd recently and it reminds me that I'm not alone no matter what happens at uni. I play it all the time as a comfort it says:

You will never walk alone, as long as you have faith
Jesus will be right beside you all the way and
You may feel your far from home, but home is where he is
And he'll be there down every road
You will never walk alone.

To me thats a huge comfort. It is also comforting to know that all the girls singing it are good friends of mine. So I know no matter where I am i'll be ok.

Bordom Strikes!

2006-09-28T16:50:00.000+01:00

Today I've had a day off from classes! I initially thought yay, but now its not so great. I'm so amazingly bored! I woke up about 1pm and for the last 4 hours ive been so bored! I was originally gonna do some washing but unfortunatly couldn't find where it was. I looked for my hall rep but she wasnt about. So I decided to come into the library n do some work....well lets just say i got bored of that. Plus the library isnt very quiet! So how am I supposed to concentrate?
I can't wait until tomorrow because I'm gonna go home and see my family who i miss very very much. Theres gonna be a big family meal on Saturday which should be good seeing as i havn't eaten a decent meal since I've been here. I really can't cook. If anyone wants to come and visit me and make me some food I wouldnt say no! LOL. I made a really nice stir fry but i ended up droppin half of it on the floor. Im so amazingly clumbsy! If anyone has any cooking tips please let me know because otherwise im going to die! Ok maybe a slight exaggeration.
Because I've been so bored and by myself a lot recently i've spent alot of time praying and do feel God very close at the moment. Its really cool that He's so close to me at the moment because I've really needed him alot recently. Im going to christian union tonight which should be good. Im interested to meet new people of God and I really hope I can make some more friends.
But yeh now im gonna go back to my room and be bored.

What A Morning!

2006-09-26T12:48:00.000+01:00

I went to straight ahead last night and besides being very tired because it took me two and a half hours to get there it was good. I think people were surprised i went because some of my friends were like "how are you gonna get home" and me being the daft and nieve lil fresher that i am thought i'll just get the train home. This was a very stupid idea because if it took me as long to get there as it did get home then i wouldn't be back until about 1am. That is not the best way to go. So i had 3 choices:

Go home with Christina and she'd drop me off in Colchester so I could go home and see my family but then get up at the crack of dawn to get to Roehampton for my lecture at 10 am.
Go and stay with Aj and Mike for the night and get up very early again and get to Roehampton for 10am.
Or just go back to Roehampton very late and very unsafe.

So what did i do you ask. Well i did none of the above! Jude who is a very good mate of mine rang up her mum and asked if i could stay the night at hers. So I did. Problem solved. I got the train home this morning at 7.30 (kinda early) and got safely back to Roehampton at 9.30. Not bad.

My lecture this morning could have gone better though! My lecturer thinks he is hilariously funny (well thats the impression i got) but the thing is hes not. Maybe I just don't get his sense of humour. Well lets just says hes a tad strange. The course seems good but i think we might clash a bit. He wants writing to be the most important thing in life and to me obviously its not. God is right this point in my life. I really do feel him with me alot. It was something that Matt said last night it really struck me. I'm not gonna go into massive detail but basically I may be in a new place but God's right beside me and always looking out for me. To me thats amazing. To others its complet crap. To me thats strange. Anyways I'm just rambling now so i'll stop.

My First Lecture

2006-09-25T15:07:00.000+01:00

This morning i went to my very first lecture. It was like information overload!!!! So mad! I hate the whole idea of stupid get to know you games! They suck. It's like 'yeh my names kat, im 18 and im from Essex!' then theres an awkward silence and a few nervous giggles. Its the worst way to get to know everyone!

Things are getting a bit better here. I went food shopping today not particulary exciting but i did it by myself and that felt so strange. London is such a whole its so un funny. No offence to people who live in London but now when i go back home im really gonna appreciate the fields and countryside that Essex has to offer. I used to think Essex was rubbish but I really miss it!

Im going to my gospel choir practise tonight (straight ahead) its gonna take me ages to get there. Probably about 2 hours or more. I'm gonna get sooooo bored! i hate tubes aswell and most of the journey is on the tube! YAY! NOT! I also have a lecture in the morning about 10 oclock so thats gonna suck if i get home late. Uni is great but it can be such an inconvience!

I can't wait to go home next weekend should be cool seeing my family

The Life Of A Fresher

2006-09-21T15:05:00.000+01:00

Things are a little bit better. I met my personal tutor today she seems cery friendly and approachable which is good. I met some people in my tutor group and they all seem nice but we didnt get much time to chat. I still miss my family quite alot but Im just tryin to get on with things.
I really miss my mum cooking for me coz i really suck at cooking! I just miss her general nagging as well. Now i actually have to think for myself! Its strange. Plus nothin in our kitchen works at the moment. The microwave is broken, one of the fridges has conked out and if you want 2 use the toaster you have to stand there the whole time to keep the bread down so it will toast because the handle is broken. Grrrr!
Tomorrow is Freshers Friday where there is a Freshers Fair so that should be cool because we get lots of free stuff!! YAY! You can't get much better than free stuff. Then on Saturday I'm staying at Judiths which should be cool and then we are off to The Rink in London on Sunday so should be a good few days. Oh and on Monday my lectures start!!! ARRRRH! LOL hopefully it should settle me a bit coz i need some sort of routine otherwise i'll go crazy just mooching around! Im gettin really bored. It's very hard when you dnt know very many people.
Oh and im looking forward to straight ahead practice which i think is on monday. so me and Jude are gonna travel up.
I really hope things start to brighten up coz im so overwhelmed at the moment. If peoples could pray for me it would be really good.

Roehampton

2006-09-20T21:49:00.000+01:00

hey
I'm now a student at Roehampton Uni studying drama theatre and performance studies combined with creative writing! LOL bit of a mouthful i kno!
I arrived here on Monday (a day late) I was so scared! So I get here n get my keys to my room and as me and my parents start carting all my stuff into my room I'm greeted by all these strange people! LOL. I was even more scared because I didn't know anyone and they all seemed to know eachother really well. This made me feel really uneasy coz it was going to be very difficult to settle in. They had already dubbed me 'The New Girl'. So then my parents leave me to it.
My room is huge! It's bigger than my room at home. I have a shower in there which is strange but extremly helpful. I'm now all unpacked and kind of settled!
I've already had two guys on my floor diss christians and that upset me because I have to listen to them go on slatling christians ALL year. My biggest problem with it is that they know I'm a christian. Some of my flat mates can't understand why I don't drink which is hard because I have told them but some of them dont respect me for it.
This all makes me feel very homesick and I really miss all my friends and family! My mums been ringin me everyday but its not the same. One girl on my floor has left. She left because she was homesick so thats very strange. I don't think i'll ever get that bad Id like to think i'm stronger than that.
I've Judith helping me alot shes so lovely and I'm glad shes here.
Neways better go xxxx

A tribute to my friend Tony

2006-09-16T18:11:00.000+01:00

hey every1
I forgot to say (probably because I dont want to accept it) is that my friend Tony died last week. He was so weak and apparently just gave up on life. I'm really gonna miss him. He was our Corps Youth Secretary and was loved so much by everyone. I dont think that there was anyone in the corps who didnt like Tony. He was a really funny guy and had a real passion for young people and of course football. He enjoyed coaching youngsters and bringing them to God through football. He would go to the roughest estates in Colchester and set up football matches. At the same time he would teach them all about Jesus.
He also was a scout for many premiereship teams such as Liverpool, Tottenham, Manchester United and Arsenal. He was great at what he did.
At summer school he helped out by organising the football and he would always tell me to play and I never did because I'm not very good at football but he didnt judge. He just encouraged and was always there to help me if i needed him. He was the very 1st person I told when I knew that I wanted to be a senior soldier. I think he was more pleased than I was. He was so excited and proud. I know he'll be there with me when I make that commitment.
He will never be forgotten and I will miss him very much. I just hope I can learn from Tony's examples and adapt them to my own life.
R.I.P T.J you were an awesome friend! xx

Why do I leave everything to the last minute?

2006-09-15T17:09:00.000+01:00

I'm back from Bognor! LOL!
I suprisingly had a really good time. I made some really good friends who I kno will be friends for life. I did so many things and most importantly in the meetings there I felt so close to God. There were so many people I met that love Jesus just as much as me and that was so special. I may not be the best christian there is but I loved every minute of being there. I sang in the chorus and we sans some of the most beautiful songs. I also played in the timbrels. Yeh I kno me! In timbrels! LOL.
The week went so quickly and now I have to grow up and go off to uni on monday and if im really honest I'm brickin it! AHHHHHH!!!!
I still havn't got everything! It's mad! I'm so tired and I have so much to do. I have to say goodbye to all of my friends tomorrow and thats gonna be so emotional. I'm gonna cry like a baby when I leave! LOL.
I've got my enrollment on Sunday which should be cool. I still havn't written my testimony! I'm terrible at the moment. I just can't seem to get round to doing anything. I'll end up sorting it out about ten minutes before it starts! I just leave everything to the last minute!
Neways I'd better go coz I have alota things to sort out!

Holiday!!!

2006-09-07T21:06:00.000+01:00

Yay! I'm going on holiday tomorrow. I still get excited about going to new places. Ok so I'm only going to bognor regis but its probably better than boring old Colchester! Its a salvation army holiday so I'm looking forward to meeting more people that love the salvation army as much as me! I'm also getting my uniform for my senior soldier enrollment aswell.
My parents sold our house yesterday! I've been away for a couple of days and I come back to my house to find a SOLD sign. I got in and said to my parents "oh so you sold it then?". They replied with a simple "yeah" as if it was it was no big deal. I would have thought that they would at least be jumping up and down for joy. They were stressed out of thier minds and now they are really calm. Parents........wierd! I havn't even seen the house they've chose because it doesn't even exist! It's not finished, it's still being built so this means that we can't move in until November/December time. So I'll go to uni come back in the christmas holidays to a whole new house which will be really strange! I've only seen pictures and plans of how the house is set out but the cool thing is me and my brother don't have to argue over room sizes because they are exactly the same size! The house has three floors and we have the top floor to ourselves with our own bathroom.
So thats my exciting bit of news. My bad news is that my friend Tony isn't really getting any better. He was supposed to be coming on this holiday that I'm going on tomorrow which is sad. My friend Alex's dad has had an accident so he is also in hospital and in a coma which isn't good either. So many people need my prayers and I'm worried that my prayers aren't strong enough to help them all. :(

3 is the not so magic number!

2006-08-30T18:19:00.000+01:00

Hey, you know how everyone says that everything happens in threes? Its true. In the past week three people in my corps (my church) have been taken into hospital. It's not good. Two broken legs and one stroke. The broken legs aren't so bad but my friend Tony had a stroke and everyone is very worried about him (especially me). He's had such a big impact on my life and has always been there to listen to me. He has been the corp's youth worker for years.
I just wanna say that if anyone actually reads my blog then can they please pray for Tony. If you went to summer school you will know Tony because he was the guy that came down to run the football. He really needs your prayers!

I'm SO BORING!!!!

2006-08-22T20:15:00.000+01:00

I'm so boring! Today I did absolutly nothing! The highlight of my day was going to view a house with my parents (because we're moving). It was yet another house that my mum didn't like. I thought it was ok but hey I'm not 2 bothered. My parents are getting more and more stressed coz we can't seem to sell our own house! We got an offer this morning but they wanted to buy it for 15,000 less than our asking price! Cheeky gits! LOL. My mum laughed in their face! Some people!
Anyways (i told u i was boring) at the moment I'm so amazingly bored! I'm dreading the prospect of going to work tomorrow night. I hate it! Grrrr!!
I got some stuff from roehampton this morning and they told me to register without giving me a username n password. How crazy! So I was unimpressed! I'll give them a couple of days. Oh and apparently I have to go and register on Sunday 17th which is a BIG problem. It's the day of my enrollment and I can't call it off AGAIN! So thats another thing I'm gonna have to ring up about! They are gonna think I'm a huge pain! Uni is soooo complicated I have like a million forms to fill in! I think I might go grey before I turn 20! LOL

Doctors Suck

2006-08-21T16:01:00.000+01:00

I went to the doctors today because I needed to have a blood test done. They told me I wouldn't need an appointment so I should just turn up. I got there and I had to wait 30 mins to see her! So I wait n wait. I was sitting next to this little kid who was coughing and sneezing all over me. I was like ewww. I'm sure he's very cute when he's not ooozing with germs but that was so nasty! So I was relieved to get away when my name is finally called.
There were like 5 different tests I needed to have done so when I saw all the tubes soon to be filled with my blood I was just a tad shakey! Then the doc tells me a huge lie! This won't hurt a bit. The next thing I know this massive needle's being plunged into me. I'm like ow!!! Not very good.
But yeh doctors suck! Well mine does!
As I am blogging there are some people looking around my house. My parents are selling our house. I'm not too bothered because I'm going off to uni in a month so it won't effect me much, but what is annoying is keeping my room tidy all the time. I like mess. My mess isn't messy mess it's organised mess and the minute my mum tries to tidy it I can't find anything!
I am so tired right now so I think I'll take a nap!

Hey Again

2006-08-19T18:13:00.000+01:00

I had to get a new blog coz my old one went wrong im annoyed! LOL. For some stupid reason I can't sign in. Grrr.
Anyways just so you know (if anyone actually reads this) I got into Roehampton Uni!! I rang them up yesterday and asked about my application and at first they put me on hold with this really depressing music (not great when you want a postive response). Then the lady told me I'd been accepted! I was over the moon. So in months time I'll be starting uni and studying Drama, Theatre and Performance Studies combined with Creative Writing!
I've just got home from work. I hate it so much but I told my boss I was leaving and that made me cheer up a bit. I can't believe I've been working in that scank pit for 2 years!
I really miss everyone from summer school. It was so great to be around people just like me for a whole week. At my corps I don't get to hang out with anyone my age. The closest person to my age is 26! Mad or what? I get enrolled on the 17th september so if I do have any friends out there that would like to come n support me that wud be awesome!
Anyways I'd better go coz I've got dinner. I'm gonna make the most of my dinners at home because once I get to Uni then I'm gonna starve. I can't cook! LOL