Update!

Ok so heres how things are going at the moment:

• My Job - a bit better still a bit nervous around people but my friend Gem told me that she feels the exact same way as me so we're gonna stick together and lean on people for support.
• Money - Again still stressing me out but I'm just tryin to save and if that means not going out then so be it. Im not gonna stress and worry anymore.
• Church - Im gonna move as soon as I can so i have that to look forward to.
• My driving test - I actually feel really confident now. I did a mock test today and I passed with 6 minors. So it was really good. I also was given what I think are the 2 hardest manovers, paralell park and reverse round a corner. No problems at all! So I feel so much more confident about it all now.

I read in Jude's blog that in a meeting she went to they were advised to move away the stone of worry. I think I need to do exactly that and not worry about these things. God will take control and if things don't go to plan I know I'll get through it because I always do and I know that God is always with me. That comforts me abit even if I do worry and stress out alot!

I've noticed that lots of other people have been blogging recently which is really good! Keep it up guys because I think it is so cool to read about other peoples lives and to see how they are getting on. Especially when you don't see them very often!

STRESS!!!!

Ok if ur squeemish STOP READING NOW! I have a stress rash all over my body! It is so nasty and painful and its making me feel sad and very un-attractive! It is the wierdest thing ever! I dunno whats causing it ok maybe I do! It's because I am so so so STRESSED!I don't think my life has EVER been this stressful. I just wanna be able to relax but I can't there is so much going on in my head right now and I just can't let go of them no matter how hard I try. Here are my stresses:

• Work - I feel a huge need to impress my boss (i don't really know why). I just want her to look upon me as a good work. I feel constantly like I need to be doing things and sometimes I just run out of ideas. I also want to remain friendly with everyone. Ever since my boss told me that I come across abit intimidating I'm trying to be extra nice.
• Money - I'm on £80 a week so it's not stretching far. I have to pay out £40 a week on driving lessons, I have a huge new look bill, I have to get to Romford next week for Fayes 21st birthday party and get her a pressie, I also still have a very big uni debt to pay off! I'm sure I owe my mum money aswell.
• My driving test - My driving test is on the 14th May and I'm so scared and nervous. I feel so pressured to pass 1st time because my brother did.
• Church - I'm really starting to hate my church.There are NO young people! It's annoying me because I feel so lonely there and I feel so much more at home when I'm worshipping around people my own age!
• College - I have ALOT of work to do. I have to pass my Hairdressing NVQ within a year and most people do it in two! EEEEEK
• My Brother - This isn't really a stress I just miss him because he moved out a couple of days and it's hard because I feel like an only child now he's gone.
  

So yeh I'm ready to explode and I look like a complete and utter freak! WOOOOOO!