Home Sweet Home

I've discovered just how much I missed my home. I got home yesterday and just being here made me happy. I felt I could relax and be myself. My parents looked happy to see me which was good. I actually got some decent food aswell which really cheered me up!
Im getting even more good food tonight! Theres a big family meal which I have to go to and apparently theres gonna be about 30 family members there. Its gonna be awkward because I haven't seen some of them since I was about 5. You know when some creepy woman (and you have no idea who they are) come up and say I havn't seen you since you were a baby and you're like um.... yeh...nice to see you. Inside your head you're think who on earth is this woman. Then about 15 mins after your nan says oh thats your aunty Flo. Its like ok so where was my birthday money for the past 18 years? LOL some aunty. Familys are very strange. I love my close relatives but these distant ones you havn't seen in awhile are just strange!
Anyways tomorrow I have to go back to what i now call reality. Back to work and stress. ROEHAMPTON! haha. It's not that bad really i just like being a lazy bum at home. When I'm at uni i have to actually do some work and im constantly worried about something or other.
I've been listening to track on the straight ahead cd recently and it reminds me that I'm not alone no matter what happens at uni. I play it all the time as a comfort it says:

You will never walk alone, as long as you have faith
Jesus will be right beside you all the way and
You may feel your far from home, but home is where he is
And he'll be there down every road
You will never walk alone.

To me thats a huge comfort. It is also comforting to know that all the girls singing it are good friends of mine. So I know no matter where I am i'll be ok.

Bordom Strikes!

Today I've had a day off from classes! I initially thought yay, but now its not so great. I'm so amazingly bored! I woke up about 1pm and for the last 4 hours ive been so bored! I was originally gonna do some washing but unfortunatly couldn't find where it was. I looked for my hall rep but she wasnt about. So I decided to come into the library n do some work....well lets just say i got bored of that. Plus the library isnt very quiet! So how am I supposed to concentrate?
I can't wait until tomorrow because I'm gonna go home and see my family who i miss very very much. Theres gonna be a big family meal on Saturday which should be good seeing as i havn't eaten a decent meal since I've been here. I really can't cook. If anyone wants to come and visit me and make me some food I wouldnt say no! LOL. I made a really nice stir fry but i ended up droppin half of it on the floor. Im so amazingly clumbsy! If anyone has any cooking tips please let me know because otherwise im going to die! Ok maybe a slight exaggeration.
Because I've been so bored and by myself a lot recently i've spent alot of time praying and do feel God very close at the moment. Its really cool that He's so close to me at the moment because I've really needed him alot recently. Im going to christian union tonight which should be good. Im interested to meet new people of God and I really hope I can make some more friends.
But yeh now im gonna go back to my room and be bored.

What A Morning!

I went to straight ahead last night and besides being very tired because it took me two and a half hours to get there it was good. I think people were surprised i went because some of my friends were like "how are you gonna get home" and me being the daft and nieve lil fresher that i am thought i'll just get the train home. This was a very stupid idea because if it took me as long to get there as it did get home then i wouldn't be back until about 1am. That is not the best way to go. So i had 3 choices:

1. Go home with Christina and she'd drop me off in Colchester so I could go home and see my family but then get up at the crack of dawn to get to Roehampton for my lecture at 10 am.
2. Go and stay with Aj and Mike for the night and get up very early again and get to Roehampton for 10am.
3. Or just go back to Roehampton very late and very unsafe.

So what did i do you ask. Well i did none of the above! Jude who is a very good mate of mine rang up her mum and asked if i could stay the night at hers. So I did. Problem solved. I got the train home this morning at 7.30 (kinda early) and got safely back to Roehampton at 9.30. Not bad.

My lecture this morning could have gone better though! My lecturer thinks he is hilariously funny (well thats the impression i got) but the thing is hes not. Maybe I just don't get his sense of humour. Well lets just says hes a tad strange. The course seems good but i think we might clash a bit. He wants writing to be the most important thing in life and to me obviously its not. God is right this point in my life. I really do feel him with me alot. It was something that Matt said last night it really struck me. I'm not gonna go into massive detail but basically I may be in a new place but God's right beside me and always looking out for me. To me thats amazing. To others its complet crap. To me thats strange. Anyways I'm just rambling now so i'll stop.

My First Lecture

This morning i went to my very first lecture. It was like information overload!!!! So mad! I hate the whole idea of stupid get to know you games! They suck. It's like 'yeh my names kat, im 18 and im from Essex!' then theres an awkward silence and a few nervous giggles. Its the worst way to get to know everyone!

Things are getting a bit better here. I went food shopping today not particulary exciting but i did it by myself and that felt so strange. London is such a whole its so un funny. No offence to people who live in London but now when i go back home im really gonna appreciate the fields and countryside that Essex has to offer. I used to think Essex was rubbish but I really miss it!

Im going to my gospel choir practise tonight (straight ahead) its gonna take me ages to get there. Probably about 2 hours or more. I'm gonna get sooooo bored! i hate tubes aswell and most of the journey is on the tube! YAY! NOT! I also have a lecture in the morning about 10 oclock so thats gonna suck if i get home late. Uni is great but it can be such an inconvience!

I can't wait to go home next weekend should be cool seeing my family

The Life Of A Fresher

Things are a little bit better. I met my personal tutor today she seems cery friendly and approachable which is good. I met some people in my tutor group and they all seem nice but we didnt get much time to chat. I still miss my family quite alot but Im just tryin to get on with things.
I really miss my mum cooking for me coz i really suck at cooking! I just miss her general nagging as well. Now i actually have to think for myself! Its strange. Plus nothin in our kitchen works at the moment. The microwave is broken, one of the fridges has conked out and if you want 2 use the toaster you have to stand there the whole time to keep the bread down so it will toast because the handle is broken. Grrrr!
Tomorrow is Freshers Friday where there is a Freshers Fair so that should be cool because we get lots of free stuff!! YAY! You can't get much better than free stuff. Then on Saturday I'm staying at Judiths which should be cool and then we are off to The Rink in London on Sunday so should be a good few days. Oh and on Monday my lectures start!!! ARRRRH! LOL hopefully it should settle me a bit coz i need some sort of routine otherwise i'll go crazy just mooching around! Im gettin really bored. It's very hard when you dnt know very many people.
Oh and im looking forward to straight ahead practice which i think is on monday. so me and Jude are gonna travel up.
I really hope things start to brighten up coz im so overwhelmed at the moment. If peoples could pray for me it would be really good.

Roehampton

hey
I'm now a student at Roehampton Uni studying drama theatre and performance studies combined with creative writing! LOL bit of a mouthful i kno!
I arrived here on Monday (a day late) I was so scared! So I get here n get my keys to my room and as me and my parents start carting all my stuff into my room I'm greeted by all these strange people! LOL. I was even more scared because I didn't know anyone and they all seemed to know eachother really well. This made me feel really uneasy coz it was going to be very difficult to settle in. They had already dubbed me 'The New Girl'. So then my parents leave me to it.
My room is huge! It's bigger than my room at home. I have a shower in there which is strange but extremly helpful. I'm now all unpacked and kind of settled!
I've already had two guys on my floor diss christians and that upset me because I have to listen to them go on slatling christians ALL year. My biggest problem with it is that they know I'm a christian. Some of my flat mates can't understand why I don't drink which is hard because I have told them but some of them dont respect me for it.
This all makes me feel very homesick and I really miss all my friends and family! My mums been ringin me everyday but its not the same. One girl on my floor has left. She left because she was homesick so thats very strange. I don't think i'll ever get that bad Id like to think i'm stronger than that.
I've Judith helping me alot shes so lovely and I'm glad shes here.
Neways better go xxxx

A tribute to my friend Tony

hey every1
I forgot to say (probably because I dont want to accept it) is that my friend Tony died last week. He was so weak and apparently just gave up on life. I'm really gonna miss him. He was our Corps Youth Secretary and was loved so much by everyone. I dont think that there was anyone in the corps who didnt like Tony. He was a really funny guy and had a real passion for young people and of course football. He enjoyed coaching youngsters and bringing them to God through football. He would go to the roughest estates in Colchester and set up football matches. At the same time he would teach them all about Jesus.
He also was a scout for many premiereship teams such as Liverpool, Tottenham, Manchester United and Arsenal. He was great at what he did.
At summer school he helped out by organising the football and he would always tell me to play and I never did because I'm not very good at football but he didnt judge. He just encouraged and was always there to help me if i needed him. He was the very 1st person I told when I knew that I wanted to be a senior soldier. I think he was more pleased than I was. He was so excited and proud. I know he'll be there with me when I make that commitment.
He will never be forgotten and I will miss him very much. I just hope I can learn from Tony's examples and adapt them to my own life.
R.I.P T.J you were an awesome friend! xx

Why do I leave everything to the last minute?

I'm back from Bognor! LOL!
I suprisingly had a really good time. I made some really good friends who I kno will be friends for life. I did so many things and most importantly in the meetings there I felt so close to God. There were so many people I met that love Jesus just as much as me and that was so special. I may not be the best christian there is but I loved every minute of being there. I sang in the chorus and we sans some of the most beautiful songs. I also played in the timbrels. Yeh I kno me! In timbrels! LOL.
The week went so quickly and now I have to grow up and go off to uni on monday and if im really honest I'm brickin it! AHHHHHH!!!!
I still havn't got everything! It's mad! I'm so tired and I have so much to do. I have to say goodbye to all of my friends tomorrow and thats gonna be so emotional. I'm gonna cry like a baby when I leave! LOL.
I've got my enrollment on Sunday which should be cool. I still havn't written my testimony! I'm terrible at the moment. I just can't seem to get round to doing anything. I'll end up sorting it out about ten minutes before it starts! I just leave everything to the last minute!
Neways I'd better go coz I have alota things to sort out!

Holiday!!!

Yay! I'm going on holiday tomorrow. I still get excited about going to new places. Ok so I'm only going to bognor regis but its probably better than boring old Colchester! Its a salvation army holiday so I'm looking forward to meeting more people that love the salvation army as much as me! I'm also getting my uniform for my senior soldier enrollment aswell.
My parents sold our house yesterday! I've been away for a couple of days and I come back to my house to find a SOLD sign. I got in and said to my parents "oh so you sold it then?". They replied with a simple "yeah" as if it was it was no big deal. I would have thought that they would at least be jumping up and down for joy. They were stressed out of thier minds and now they are really calm. Parents........wierd! I havn't even seen the house they've chose because it doesn't even exist! It's not finished, it's still being built so this means that we can't move in until November/December time. So I'll go to uni come back in the christmas holidays to a whole new house which will be really strange! I've only seen pictures and plans of how the house is set out but the cool thing is me and my brother don't have to argue over room sizes because they are exactly the same size! The house has three floors and we have the top floor to ourselves with our own bathroom.
So thats my exciting bit of news. My bad news is that my friend Tony isn't really getting any better. He was supposed to be coming on this holiday that I'm going on tomorrow which is sad. My friend Alex's dad has had an accident so he is also in hospital and in a coma which isn't good either. So many people need my prayers and I'm worried that my prayers aren't strong enough to help them all. :(